crazy cats and somersaults

I found my Pokemon cards. I also found my sailor moon puzzle. I would say I ordered then via Ebay as a child, because Todd and I were obsessed. I still am. I plan to buy some puzzle glue, then you know whats up- :D

Among the usual~things have been GREAT lately. I want to say, cleansing my home, meditation, saging myself, aerial yoga and listening to bin aural beats has really helped me calm myself. Yea I said it. It helps me stay c.a.l.m. I do not yell anymore. I don't care if I have not yelled for two days. My rage is flipping over into a blank sheet of ribbon light, floating around collecting colors, folding and molding it into a beautiful form of happiness. A shape that I cannot describe. These past three years have been too intense and I am floating away now~~* All I'm sending is love to you and if you cannot handle it try to accept it. But...

The people whom I have evicted from my life still linger, but do not go noticed by me anymore. Have any one of you ever had to rid a toxic person or (people) out of your life? I am a simple person. I am a happy person. But I do believe that some people trigger others on purpose, then play the blame game. Some of those who I have encountered these experiences with, I have labeled as "toxic"in my personal life. I honestly feel a lot lighter, and a whole mess of insecurity, doubt, depression, and anger has been lifted from my shoulders. I am a warrior.I was sent to be loving and to appreciate and honor the little things people pass over everyday, every minute, and every second. Knowing that within myself does not make me vain or selfish. I am just aware. I am aware that I  must not let the demon of fear and anger stop me from shining my light. I am not letting those energy vampires attack me anymore. The people who show a part of them they only want me to see, then behind my back rape me with words and destructive actions can jump into one of the imaginary bubbles I am blowing and float away as well. "We all float on alright..."-that song ya? 'Loves about that' Modest Mouse :)

I have been dreaming very intense, vivid dreams. None that are traumatic. I dream about all sorts of different things, places, people, entities... I try to draw them. If I remember, I try to take the time to actually keep a journal of my dreams- most of them are scattered on bits and pieces of paper then sorted through my journals. When I look back on past dreams, even if it does not have a date, the intense detail can bring me back to the emotion, place/time and awareness I experienced.
I would love to explain the dream of me with those who love me, swimming on a different planet, watching Earth's reflection on the rocks. The planet I go to in these dreams, has rocks that are reflective like water. The water is a VERY light blue and has a sparkle I cannot explain. Bodies are not like the physical form here on Earth in our waking moments. When I practiced Reiki more, I remember dreaming more and actually lucid dreaming.

I hope that everyone who is reading this has a wonderful day and or night. Depends on where you are. I hope that you nourish yourself and thank yourself for being you because like I have learned the hard way- you cannot force anyone to like or love you- just be you and the rest will follow~ :)
Oh and send love and hugs to those ::haters::!! Thank them for creating balance!!!

Here are a couple pictures from Aerial Yoga:
The others are for fun~~*

you know you love my awesome pants



snowmen in the summer



blast OFF!

Betcha didn't notice that beautiful Golden Spiral~ :) did ya?

Stay Cool

Emi

XO

my days in pictures.

I think I could turn and live with animals,
they're so placid and self-contained,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God,
Not one is dissatisfied,

not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to another,
...
nor to his kind that lived thousands of years ago,
Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.

("Song of Myself", Walt Whitman, 1819-1892)

i love my quiet space

I am updating this post, for I have come to the realization that this is going to be about art, art, art and more creativity from within my soul. if it offends, i greatly do not apologize because this is who i am and i want to express that whole heatedly

searching deeper and deeper in my soul

thinkin' bout the days when i was a little one

soaking up the rays on my surf board

back darker than a ripened strawberry

I miss the days of gazing at the universe, but there is no reason why i cannot blast back into the outer limits of my mind.

mental freedom

mental space

we all come from a certain place, and have to be empathetic to those who are suffering

we all need to look into the eyes of people talking to us, and listen to hear

not to speak

xx

UPDATE

 

I AM GOING TO CARE ABOUT MYSELF A LITTLE MORE THAN I HAVE BEEN.
(CHECK)

I AM GOING TO RE-VAMP MY WHOLE CLOSET.
(I got rid of everything)

I AM GOING TO THINK POSITIVE.
(min by minute, hour by hour, day by day, smile by smile)


_remember how beautiful you are inside and out_

XX

Sketches for three of my favorite Fashion Bloggers:

Lights Drive My Soul

Disarming Darling

Jean Greige

Elya! Baby Girl! Little Bunny!

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I have not posted any pictures of my precious lil' bunny lately. I thought I would put a few up that I have taken this past week. Elya is growing so fast! She has a cousin James who is 5 months now too! We have not seen his development in person, only in pictures. It sucks when some people keep others out of their lives for selfish, stupid reasons...I wish these two babies can get to know each other!!

In the mean time, our little family is doing so well. We are extremely happy to be parents and to watch our child grow. Kyle is a wonderful father and Elya is a super intelligent, sharing, kind, loving daughter.

We have each other and that is all that matters!!

xx

((((P.S Cheers to reuniting with old friends))))

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I was wondering if I should start posting pictures of my outfits?

I feel totally out of the box and want to share the art i wear on my body...

...if only I can bring myself to re-vamp my closet.

TOOTLES!

xx

photo diary 1



The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong. ~ Mahatma Gandhi

Today was awesome. I had another shoot with Danielle Lacey, and channeled my inner child. I'll go to any extreme! Let me just put it that way. Maybe that is why I am the black sheep of my family???

 I also felt like I was slipping back into a trip at one point...

Being touched by the earth makes me want to run away into the wind and breathe in the deep essence of life's spirit. Yeah, my leg was a little bloody, but I didn't mind. Too bad I didn't have the fake blood and fangs, because then we could have had a fiasco! If I were in my own clothes, I would have jumped into that mud and gone for it.  

I want to slip into a blanket of warm air and stare at the sky lately. I really missed the freedom of having just myself and my thoughts. I appreciated having that time today.  Elya and Daddy are bonding so close. She loves him just as much as she loves me and those 'boobalines'.

 Ahahahha did I make you uncomfortable?

"Hey! It's life people...move forward and don't look. I use a blanket."

I think it's funny to make those uncomfortable because it's the natural way of life you hypocritical hippies.

maybe we'll meet in the astral world.

peace & love always

xx