I found my Pokemon cards. I also found my sailor moon puzzle. I would say I ordered then via Ebay as a child, because Todd and I were obsessed. I still am. I plan to buy some puzzle glue, then you know whats up- :D
Among the usual~things have been GREAT lately. I want to say, cleansing my home, meditation, saging myself, aerial yoga and listening to bin aural beats has really helped me calm myself. Yea I said it. It helps me stay c.a.l.m. I do not yell anymore. I don't care if I have not yelled for two days. My rage is flipping over into a blank sheet of ribbon light, floating around collecting colors, folding and molding it into a beautiful form of happiness. A shape that I cannot describe. These past three years have been too intense and I am floating away now~~* All I'm sending is love to you and if you cannot handle it try to accept it. But...
The people whom I have evicted from my life still linger, but do not go noticed by me anymore. Have any one of you ever had to rid a toxic person or (people) out of your life? I am a simple person. I am a happy person. But I do believe that some people trigger others on purpose, then play the blame game. Some of those who I have encountered these experiences with, I have labeled as "toxic"in my personal life. I honestly feel a lot lighter, and a whole mess of insecurity, doubt, depression, and anger has been lifted from my shoulders. I am a warrior.I was sent to be loving and to appreciate and honor the little things people pass over everyday, every minute, and every second. Knowing that within myself does not make me vain or selfish. I am just aware. I am aware that I must not let the demon of fear and anger stop me from shining my light. I am not letting those energy vampires attack me anymore. The people who show a part of them they only want me to see, then behind my back rape me with words and destructive actions can jump into one of the imaginary bubbles I am blowing and float away as well. "We all float on alright..."-that song ya? 'Loves about that' Modest Mouse :)
I have been dreaming very intense, vivid dreams. None that are traumatic. I dream about all sorts of different things, places, people, entities... I try to draw them. If I remember, I try to take the time to actually keep a journal of my dreams- most of them are scattered on bits and pieces of paper then sorted through my journals. When I look back on past dreams, even if it does not have a date, the intense detail can bring me back to the emotion, place/time and awareness I experienced.
I would love to explain the dream of me with those who love me, swimming on a different planet, watching Earth's reflection on the rocks. The planet I go to in these dreams, has rocks that are reflective like water. The water is a VERY light blue and has a sparkle I cannot explain. Bodies are not like the physical form here on Earth in our waking moments. When I practiced Reiki more, I remember dreaming more and actually lucid dreaming.
I hope that everyone who is reading this has a wonderful day and or night. Depends on where you are. I hope that you nourish yourself and thank yourself for being you because like I have learned the hard way- you cannot force anyone to like or love you- just be you and the rest will follow~ :)
Oh and send love and hugs to those ::haters::!! Thank them for creating balance!!!
Here are a couple pictures from Aerial Yoga:
The others are for fun~~*
you know you love my awesome pants
snowmen in the summer
Betcha didn't notice that beautiful Golden Spiral~ :) did ya?
I think I could turn and live with animals,
they're so placid and self-contained,
I stand and look at them long and long.
They do not sweat and whine about their condition,
They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,
They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God,
Not one is dissatisfied,
not one is demented with the mania of owning things,
Not one kneels to another, ... nor to his kind that lived thousands of years ago, Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.
ROPA 12-NA [Santiago | Cl]
LANDRY [Barcelona | Sp]
DANIEL GIL [Santiago | Cl]
LIMBO FAMILY [Barcelona | Sp]
GEPE [Santiago | Cl]
¨Legitimize our body as a means of transportation¨.
Day by day just wondering about what I should post because posting is really hard for me. I sit at home and do my homework then ponder on all the art supplies I have. I take notice and take time announcing my appreciation for my talent and expression for this life on Earth. I appreciate every tool given to me as if it is the next step towards my inner peace. I am really digging melting my crayons and tying in my wire and making women's hair with it. I like to make my pieces come to life with a 3D aspect. Honestly, I know I have procrastinated to a couple ladies who I am supposed to have sent sketches to. I do want to mention that I have been shot out into space and got lost amongst the stars, for I seriously got lost in this abyss of creativity for awhile and forgot to send them.
I played my singing bowl the other day for my 11 1/2 month old daughter, Elya. She sent me into this crazy meditation watching her eyes soak up the resonating tones. The frequencies we were feeling helped us feel at ease. I realized that her mind is always at this relaxed state. It inspired me and I reminded myself to always keep my inner voice soft and positive. After this realization I have felt a smoother, more vibrant aura surrounding my mind.
Maybe it is because of this transformation I have been experiencing for the past two years, has led me to eat for each one of my chakras to use as natural healing? I honestly can say that focusing on the little beautiful details has led me to a more appreciate attitude toward life.
The Universe has pushed out the energy vampires that have been feasting on my happiness and soul. Everything is becoming more clear to me and I am trusting my instinct more.
With trusting myself, I have dreamt more which now I am having dreams of insight into my higher self, and can actually change the destructive path these vampires want me to take.
When everyone is looking at your soul on shrooms, LSD, ayuhuasca; they're looking at your soul, not your shoes, jewelery or hair. Be creative and be different. Do what feels right to you without being afraid of judgement. I want to go naked and for it to be respected as a spiritual vessel instead of a body that triggers the mind of slimy porno rat. The mind, body and soul is connected and all I want to say is that.
I posted this video and couple pictures to represent the Fashion in Spain. I am proud of who I am and want to express my appreciation for all of the history and people loving each other that has led me to be born & create this post. (These masks are super cool/scary at the same time. I wanna wear one out to dinner in a really expensive restaurant, with a skin toned maxi dress. Maybe just order a water....)
peace & love for all you humans and aliens out there.
I am updating this post, for I have come to the realization that this is going to be about art, art, art and more creativity from within my soul. if it offends, i greatly do not apologize because this is who i am and i want to express that whole heatedly
searching deeper and deeper in my soul
thinkin' bout the days when i was a little one
soaking up the rays on my surf board
back darker than a ripened strawberry
I miss the days of gazing at the universe, but there is no reason why i cannot blast back into the outer limits of my mind.
we all come from a certain place, and have to be empathetic to those who are suffering
we all need to look into the eyes of people talking to us, and listen to hear
not to speak
I AM GOING TO CARE ABOUT MYSELF A LITTLE MORE THAN I HAVE BEEN. (CHECK)
I AM GOING TO RE-VAMP MY WHOLE CLOSET. (I got rid of everything)
I AM GOING TO THINK POSITIVE. (min by minute, hour by hour, day by day, smile by smile)
Wowie wowie WOW. This week has been a long one. I really need to get organized. I moved into my house almost eight months ago and I seriously have not re-vamped my closet. The rest of my house is great, but god forbid walking into my room. I swear I am sending everyone to voice mail tomorrow if anyone calls, and getting my life ORGANIZED. I need to focus on me a little. Now wheres my White Russian!?!
Zoning out and feeling inspired has been very refreshing for me lately. I ended up purchasing a bunch of my favorite gem stones and wrapped them. I find it very soothing to smell mint candles, hear a baby snore, and be able to have all the 'me' time in the world.
I have not posted any pictures of my precious lil' bunny lately. I thought I would put a few up that I have taken this past week. Elya is growing so fast! She has a cousin James who is 5 months now too! We have not seen his development in person, only in pictures. It sucks when some people keep others out of their lives for selfish, stupid reasons...I wish these two babies can get to know each other!!
In the mean time, our little family is doing so well. We are extremely happy to be parents and to watch our child grow. Kyle is a wonderful father and Elya is a super intelligent, sharing, kind, loving daughter.
I just had to snap a few photos backstage at the Noco/Xotica Performance I performed in. Everyone looked amazing, and I feel bad for not being able to snap a photo of everyone!! Even the dancers from Oklahoma were awesome. Everything was swell! We have another performance this Saturday.